3/03/2005 10:12:00 AM

okie.. back to update again.... well basically today was a nice day except for small little stuff dat i'm unhappy wif... 1stly... becoz of some "great fantastic organiser or rather in-charge" has not been doing his job n i haf to take over watever shit he's left behind.. i'm sure many pple noe who this person is... cant do his job well n cant organise outing when he's got tonnes of free time n me... not even enuff time to slp..... wtf....things dat u r asked to do since january n u haven even do it... u shld noe who u r.... i'm rather pissed... but at the same time... i will forgive u coz i think i wld rather spend time to do wat i'm supposed to do properly than to keep on getting irritated by u..... oh fine watever... anyway pple... pls remember to return me money after i buy ben's n phil's present... its not cheap to buy both present at the same time.... haha... pls be more zi dong hor.... thanx ah....
sometimes small little things dat pple say can actually hurt alot... to the person who said it.. maybe he doesnt feel anything but the listener feels hurt... very hurt... but wld u choose to let him noe u r hurt?? or wld u juz keep quiet n do not say anything??? i choose the latter... coz i dun wan him to say dat i always get angry over small little things... maybe some day i cannot take it anymore n juz explodes out... dats juz so me.... n who to blame but myself??? haiz... someday when i realli let out all my feelings... it will be the day i'm gone... out of my world.. out of everybody's world.....

good luck to pple getting their A's results in 14hrs time... sms me or gif me a call to let me noe how u did..... take care all my frenz....

3/01/2005 08:01:00 PM

blogging at such weird time... coz lesson starts at 130 today... haha.. seems like i'm continuing my everyday blogging system liao... haha... coz now slightly more time coz tests are all over... but muz start preparing for the next round of tests to come liao... haiz... so sad... sometimes i realli think am i up to it to be studying in a university?? i feel like i cant cope wif everything... i cant understand wat the lecturers are toking abt i cant do my tutorials n i cant do well in my tests...sometimes i juz feel dat y can a stupid person like me able to go to a local university??? haiz... i oso dun understand wat is happening..
even though i noe i'm having a good life dat many pple wish to haf... i still dun feel happy... it seems like there is something lacking in my life n i dunno wat issit... i'm having the almost perfect life yet i still feel so empty... maybe its becoz i never tot abt the future?? or issit i dunno wat i realli wan in future coz i'm too fickle-minded??? i got no idea... i juz wish to live everyday happily... but i noe i'm lacking something in the midst of my happiness....

2/28/2005 08:17:00 PM

back again... now in sch library nothing to do.. actually haf things to do lah.. maths tut.. but i'm having a bad stomach cramp... so i shall give myself a break... *feel so terrible* took panadol oredi but like no effect.. kinda sux... anyway had my phy test yest... sux like hell... 5 mcq i onli manage to do 2... den 2 copy my fren 1 n 1 didnt even attempt... sux... i think its becoz i'm stupid... since the guy beside me noes how to do it.. but he's kind enuff to let me copy 2 qns... thanx.. dun think he will see this lor.. wahahah... coz i dun even noe his name.. i onli noe him as colleen's last sem classmate... hee... haiz.. so sad... i've been trying to work very hard this sem le... but seems like my efforts are not seeing results.... sianz.. maybe i shld juz slack like last sem n scrap thru happily... instead of putting in so much effort n oso juz scrap thru... sux sux sux... i feel like my efforts are going down the drain... dun seem to do well in any test... but i've studied hard.. maybe i didnt put in my best... but i oredi did study.. realli did... haiz.. think i'm juz stupid... i shall be slacker from now....

2/27/2005 08:35:00 AM

here to blog b4 bb comes to my hse n hog the computer... haha juz kidding lah... anyway juz let him play his gb on my comp since it wun lag... anyway he got his new lappy which also wun lag... hmm.. so good.. got new lappy.. i oso wan.. but think my parents will kill me coz my comp is not even 3 mth old... hahaha... had a boring day today.. but somehow i felt much better... maybe i pmsing?? haha... no idea too... watever lah... i haf to say sorry to my bb for having to tolerate wif my spoilt brat attitude n tempremental feelings for the past few days.. realli glad u r always here for me.. love u bb.. anyway i always think alot when i'm sian or when i pmsing... den when i got over it i will realise i haf a good life n i shall live it to the fullest.. shldnt keep complaining how my life sux coz it doesnt always sux... in fact most of the time its been good.. juz dat i'm never satisfied wif it... hee...
PS: actually i kinda hate pmsing... it sux...
happy belated 5th mth anniversary bb!!! hee...